Let's find a new way of life..............Eat free (食べない選択）

Thank you so much for giving such an encouraging comment, you must be busy takig care of all the poeple around the world who have started to live on this lifestyle, I wonder if you have generated 2 or 3 other existance of your own,,,,,,or as you mentioned before, you are very efficient user of your time....I hope I would be able to manage my life too.....
Actually I was going to stop putting my diary here if no one visits here. and also, today it must be execuses, but I ate a lot, not so many compared with past, but as a person who is trying to attain the goal of Non-eating, I ate a lot.
Today, it was very cold, and raining outside, and I've got chilblains on my feet which I bears everyyear not because of going on this lifestyle,,,I was not feelign so hungry, actually originally my appitite is not so strong even before I started this experiment, so what is the reason I eat, I think it's because the feeling that I want to connect myself to something, and my appitite might be come from the feeling of my fear, I am not sure what I feel that fear for, may be from my past or something. In any case, what I need will be what Joachim recommended to me the other day,,,,Say " I am the source of Love and Light which build my mind and body."
anyway, I am not feeling so bad, and tomorrow is another new day, so let's have a good visualizaton so that we can keep going to get near to the dream even a bit by bit.

What have I eaten,
8:30AM a slice of bread
9:30AM a cup of buttered corn which I cooked for my kids, and left over

afternoon
a bowl of grain rice cracker 100g
a bowl of peanuts with hull
milk coffee, and cocoa without sugar


Let's see what's going to happen to my eating style from now on.

Now I clicked a wrong bottun when I finished writing this blog,
So I just put the amount of food I had these 2 days.
Yesterday, I ate some Japanese lettuce and drunk 3 cups of greentea durling a day.
Today, I had the same thing, and also had a few cups of dandelion coffee.

I didn't sleep last night except for snooozing while taking a bath. I was in the bathroom for about 3 hours...After that as I was not sleepy, I started to translate some articules in Joachim's site. Before 6 o'clock I felt hungry and ate dry beans I was intending to keep from eating though...We, Japanese people eat dry beans on Feburary 3rd, this is the day called 'setsubun'which means the day between winter and spring and on that day we throw dry beans out of the house saying "May bad things go away" and throw them in the house saying "May happy come this year". Anyway it might not have been what I really wanted to eat, but I couldn't find some other thing. Dandelion coffee didn't satisfy me. Usually after throwing beans, we eat as the same amount of them as our age, but I ate more than that... So, so far,

6:00AM a handfull of dry beans
7:00AM a cup of boiled rice

One of our member who try to live without food said "Non-Eating is not an illusion."
Which caught my heart. Actually she's got what Joachim call the wide range of "sophire of Consiousness", she believes Non-eating(I think this is the most difficult thing) and loves it. She realizes many things and has free and open mind. The author of "Non-Eating" is also in the range I still don't quite understand, has such an open heart and,now on the way of his second book called "Non-Sleeping"

I'll put down my eating diary later today.

What did I take today:

11:30AM half glass of apple juice which I grated and strained using wire netting.
12:00 dandelion coffee, which is said to make us warm containing no caffein.
4:00PM steamed sweet potate (half)
7:00 hotcocoa without sugar
11:00 hotcocoa

What do you think? I just took what I felt I wanted to take, but I guess, if I didn't need to cook meals for my family, I would not make a choice to go to the market to get some foods nor cook.......but in reality, my family is ordinary. My husband and kids love to eat. So, even when I barely can manage to refrain myself from eating, when I see or smell nice things, I just taste them.......actually it tastes much nicer when I am on the way of non-eating. My tongue has become very sharp so that it can taste much more......sweetness, bitterness, saltiness....also deliciousness.